The interesting part about being a grown-up, who has Jesus in her corner, is that I get to navigate life with someone who sees things clearly. I have a growing relationship with God and it’s amazing exploring the plans God has for me. One thing I’m learning though, is seeing things the way God sees them. You see, God has a very unique way of seeing things, and my understanding of that has opened my eyes to see the magnitude of God- as well as the endless possibilities of what I can do.
If you’ve read enough of my posts, you will know that I’m quite fascinated by David. I think I’ve gotten to the point where he had to ask God to “Open my eyes so I may behold wondrous things” (Psalm 119:18). Once you say that to God, there’s no telling how very open you would be to God’s Word. I no longer limit God to just being my Father. He is also my trusted Friend- I can confide in Him. The fascinating thing about our friendship is that I don’t even have to guess what He thinks of me, neither do I have to guess if He would betray me. I know for a certainty that He will always be there. Now, there have been moments when I have treated Him less than He deserves. I stood Him up on very many hangouts that I set up with Him. I failed to show Him as much love as He deserves because my mind was wandering and I have made a new friend who I am getting to know a little more. I have taken advantage of the fact that I know that He will always be there. But guess what? He never gives up on me. He keeps reminding me of why we became friends in the first place, and I end up back where I belong- with Him.
You see, I learnt something quite hard to accept recently. I have been a proxy. I made myself out to be the real deal when I was just a proxy. I was looking at myself through this other eye- for a start, I was convinced that I was indeed cherished and loved. The center of attraction. But the truth is, I was only just available. I was not the plan, I was just the available proxy. I fought so hard to be seen, to be heard, to show that I do deserve to be cherished. I was merely taking the place for someone else, someone who deserved to be there. So yeah, I quit that. I quit feeling like I couldn’t be made for more. Like settling for what was available was the next best thing. Then, my Friend reminded me that I am the Apple of His eyes. Yes, He has many other friends and children, but He truly loves us all the same. I sincerely don’t have to fight for His attention, neither do I need to worry if He cares for me. He sees me the way I ought to be seen- I have a new task, seeing myself the same way He sees me.
This season, for some, has drawn them closer to God or to their passion. For me, it’s made me look deep within me and start to appreciate the treasure that was in-built within me. Yes, I really had to go through the process of refinement, and that’s still ongoing, but I now see the treasure that He sees. I AM THE APPLE OF GOD’S EYE.
P.S: I had a whole different plan for this post, but my fingers and heart had something else in mind. Please figure out the treasure God has placed in you and hold on to it. Remember, you are very very very very loved.
With my sincerest love,